[He had to hear it in Eichi's own words. The truth. The reasons for his suffering. And why, after Eichi felled him, did he not stop? Why didn't the torment end at his downfall as an idol? Why was it made personal, with his entire reputation destroyed? He could've simply gone into retirement after graduation, had Eichi let him alone. But now he's stirred up the will to fight in Wataru. A miscalculation.]
I don't hate you. Oh, by God above do I wish I hated you, Eichi! It would make this so much easier! I wouldn't constantly be trying to win you over. I wouldn't be continually struggling to find my footing again. I wouldn't even be an idol anymore if I hated you! To hear it now, from your lips, the word "jealousy"! If only I had known that was the root of your vitriol, I would have suffered to end my own life rather than see you struggle to reach something unattainable.
[A laugh.]
Is that what you want to hear? That your torment drove me to desperation? No, that's not the Wataru Hibiki of your dreams, your fantasies. That Wataru Hibiki is human, too human for your comfort. Too real, too vulnerable. I had to be completely untouchable to fulfill your needs. You had to kill God himself, or you'd never be happy. How did that work out for you? Did you find meaning?
[He smiles broadly.]
Like a fallen angel, I became dark, obsessed with knowing why, why, why me, why this, why now? Why did I never give up? Even now, I'm so desperate to understand you that I ache. If only I could understand the Eichi Tenshouin capable of killing God, I could make him stop. I could win his heart and soothe him and take from him this desire to slaughter angels. I could heal you, I thought, with joy, with love, with Amazing! Yet you never listened when I tried. You struck me down, blow after blow, you hurt my friends, my family! Changing the school wasn't enough for you, was it? You had to change me.
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I don't hate you. Oh, by God above do I wish I hated you, Eichi! It would make this so much easier! I wouldn't constantly be trying to win you over. I wouldn't be continually struggling to find my footing again. I wouldn't even be an idol anymore if I hated you! To hear it now, from your lips, the word "jealousy"! If only I had known that was the root of your vitriol, I would have suffered to end my own life rather than see you struggle to reach something unattainable.
[A laugh.]
Is that what you want to hear? That your torment drove me to desperation? No, that's not the Wataru Hibiki of your dreams, your fantasies. That Wataru Hibiki is human, too human for your comfort. Too real, too vulnerable. I had to be completely untouchable to fulfill your needs. You had to kill God himself, or you'd never be happy. How did that work out for you? Did you find meaning?
[He smiles broadly.]
Like a fallen angel, I became dark, obsessed with knowing why, why, why me, why this, why now? Why did I never give up? Even now, I'm so desperate to understand you that I ache. If only I could understand the Eichi Tenshouin capable of killing God, I could make him stop. I could win his heart and soothe him and take from him this desire to slaughter angels. I could heal you, I thought, with joy, with love, with Amazing! Yet you never listened when I tried. You struck me down, blow after blow, you hurt my friends, my family! Changing the school wasn't enough for you, was it? You had to change me.