I'm resigned to it, in a way. Knowing that every moment I spend with you has to be more precious than the last, simply because I never know when we'll be torn apart...
[A sigh, and he nuzzles Eichi's nose.]
But maybe this time it won't be so. We may have to weather this and that, but we'll be granted a whole lifetime together.
[He stands from the bed, grabbing his pajamas and slipping his arms through the sleeves of his top first. He ducks in as he buttons it, kissing Wataru slowly.]
And after that? [His voice is low and drawn out, and as he pulls back again to grab his pants, he smiles brighter.] I'll arrange a trick to rid you of this room and place you closer to mine. It will be much easier to meet up again, after that.
[Wataru looks down at himself shyly, as if it's sinking in suddenly that, yes, they did that. But then there's a kiss, and it chases all the uncertainty away, his hands resting delicate fingertips on Eichi's wrists.]
I'd like that. I'd like to sleep next to you every night, if it's possible! I've never known happiness like being beside you...
[...Sweet. He wonders, briefly, if being in Wataru's hands like this means that he'll lose his shine to him. If he might lose Wataru's interest over time... But he won't worry about that. He'll keep working to keep his interest, no matter what. He'll shine as brightly as possible, at all times.
Pants on now, he squeezes Wataru's hands and forces himself to step back and let his grip slip away completely.]
In a couple short hours, I'll see you again... my beautiful partner. From now on, let's sleep side by side for a majority of the night and then escape before the sun rises. Like two distance stars coming to meet again and again...
[He smiles, and even in the dark it's shining. He waves cutely, reaching behind himself with the other hand to unlock and slip out of the door without ever turning around.]
[Maybe Wataru will lose his shine in Eichi's eyes, if he's suddenly so close, so attainable, when Eichi's always thought or acted otherwise. But Eichi will never lose his shine in Wataru's eyes. He'll value and cherish him in every way, whether Eichi's light is bright or dim at the time.
His hands hover in the air a bit, and the ends of his hair seem to droop from where they were sleep-mussed and wild. Eichi's leaving... Eichi...
Eichi's leaving, but with beautiful words, a promise, and all Wataru can do is nod because where Wataru is usually the whirlwind, Eichi is that this morning. He wants to scream at the top of his lungs, yes, yes! But off the blonde goes, and Wataru finally lets his hands dumbly wave back, a goodbye to the nothingness that remains in Eichi's absence.
He feels cold now, incomplete, but they're lovers... Yes, that's what they've become! They've held each other so close he can't bear being apart. Minutes pass, Wataru's violet eyes fixed on the door, then a knock comes. One of the servants to rouse him. He's so glad they don't bother him much, that they don't open the door, because he's still naked, and still staring blankly ahead at the space Eichi occupied until moments ago.]
Yes, good morning~☆! I'll be out shortly!
[Cheerful, but with a feigned touch of sleepiness to make it seem as though he's only just awakened. And then he slides out of bed to dress and make his way to breakfast.]
[Breakfast comes and goes easily. It's endearing, watching Wataru glowing as he is from across the table, and it takes every bit of will power not to close any distance here in front of the servants. He eats, sips his tea, and talks about their plans for the day. Rehearsal.
It means they'll have a space to themselves, and hopefully the focus on their performance is going to keep their hands off of each other, but he's already thinking about tonight.]
Take your time if you still have anything to finish, Wataru. I'm done, myself, but I won't leave until you're ready.
[It's obvious that Wataru's world has shifted. He does practically glow, his eyes bright, his steps light, a song on his lips. He fairly danced into the room! But that's not so abnormal for him that the servants make any comment on it, or even notice. They tolerate him, and that's about the extent of it.
Eichi, though! Eichi adores him, and Wataru kicks his feet a bit beneath the table as he's addressed. Reaching for the last strawberry remaining from his French toast, he grins.]
I'm ready now! Our show is mere days away! We can't possibly think of dawdling here, right?
Fufu... That's right. We need to perfect what we can. It's difficult for someone with health like mine to do much in the days leading up to it, but I can't let it go untouched, either.
I want to be perfectly in sync with you, Wataru.
[He stands up from his chair, and the servants move in to begin clearing up immediately. They don't give Wataru the same courtesy of waiting. Eichi doesn't notice or care, since Wataru's said he's done, and waits for him to join him at his side before he walks.]
I've asked not to be interrupted, so we can practice as we see fit. I have some ideas for how we should begin, but I'm curious to hear yours, as well... What do you think? Is there anything we should add, or edit?
[Wataru doesn't notice how quickly and rudely the servants swoop in. He's too focused on being alone with Eichi again, on reviewing what happened, on planning more, on--oh, they need to rehearse.
He walks backwards through the hallway on tiptoe, never taking his eyes off Eichi.]
We'll take it easy for the next few days, won't we? Your health has to be perfect! Eichi has to be in tip-top shape, or we won't finish the lengthy set. But I do have one small, small suggestion...
[It's incredible, watching him like this. Like their dark days have past, like there's nothing to worry about. They'll take on the stage together and surprise the whole school. They'll create a statement, they'll change things for the better, this time... It won't be fine. It will be better.
He's also just amazed that Wataru can navigate like this. As expected of him...]
Oh? I want to hear it, so don't hold it back any longer. What's your suggestion, Wataru?
[All the darkness, all the suffering they weathered... Wataru can forget it now. He can forget the way his hair is cut and the way he wonders if all the nightmares will ever go away. He can focus on Eichi.]
It's a risky proposition. Idols shouldn't date, you know. And especially not school-aged idols, who should be focusing on their careers! But, Eichi... what if we kissed?
[He titters a bit, and clasps his hands in front of his chest as he turns a circle while still making forward (backward?) progress.]
A stage kiss, a stage kiss! We can make it look as real as we like, tease the outcome but never show the payoff. We can create something new, something only we can provide.
[Eichi looks genuinely surprised as they walk, slowing his steps just slightly, but still managing to keep up. The doors to the large ballroom that's been cleared out for their practicing are just ahead, but Eichi's eyes are on Wataru, equal parts concerned and interested.]
That's an extremely bold move. For two who were on opposite sides to not just join a unit completely different in theme, but to share something so intimate on stage at the first performance...? Ah...
It could be just what we need to snap life and energy into the people. However... it's risky. You could end up hated even more than now. [He brings his hand to his chin, humming.] Though, considering what we're doing... it would likely be temporary. Such a bold statement might actually repair things, over time...
Think of it! If we always tease the kiss, but never let our lips meet, we'll cause a stir. A sensation! We'll be those forbidden two, sides that exist only together, but never meet, light and darkness, male and female, the ebb and flow of life itself.
[Like. Also he just wants to kiss Eichi on the lips in rehearsal, sure, but. There's honestly a bigger plan and purpose here, and he's unveiling it layer by layer, letting Eichi catch on to each little thread. It's more fun that way, so he feels like he figured it out himself. Wataru does love those eureka moments from him already.
They haven't been together long, he knows, they've hardly been a unit any longer than they were kidnapping victims, he often feels, but... The distance and time they've crossed, the way they've gone from mortal enemies to lovers! It's a tale worth telling.]
For now, we look dangerous and sensual. We stir up controversy and keep people talking. But later, when the time is right... It's not like I mind being hated! I never really wanted to die, even when things were at their worst. What's a few more cast stones?
[He says that firmly enough, eyes flicking past Wataru briefly and at the doors to the ballroom, then back. Shamelessly, he just wants to be able to kiss Wataru, too. They could, each time the curtain falls, if it's placed at the end... He likes that.]
But I want to make this work, as well. I believe it's possible. I'm currently at the top of the school. So long as we perform beautifully, it will cause a rush, excitement. Even if the image is of the two of us meeting in this way, it will seem as though you've been purified, if we manage it correctly.
So let's practice well. I believe we've managed to read each other well enough that we can improvise on the first run, don't you think?
If I hurt for Eichi's sake, then let me come to the brink of death!
[He smiles, and drops his voice, soft and gentle and loving and unafraid.]
But we'll never die. Ever. I won't allow it. We're eternal, right? Aren't we? We've declared it already, we've put in the very paperwork that makes us such! I won't tempt fate, but I will say that anyone who dares to come for one of us, comes for us both, and they'll learn they're a fool sooner than I'll even admit that I'm one, too!
[Reaching out, he offers a hand to Eichi. They could. They will. Like Romeo and Juliet, night after night, they'll seal their eternal bargain with a kiss, hidden away from the world. They'll live and die by each other's grace.]
You've seen through my thoughts. Where I might drag you down with this, had we any other concept, the duality of our performance gives you the power of light and goodness. Of purity, even! Set me alight! Burn me up until the phoenix rises from the ashes, and we can both stand as tall as you see me. And for the first one, we'll see where things go. I'll end inches from your lips.
[Eichi reaches forward to take that hand, and steps closer still, his other pushing open the heavy door of the ballroom. Sure enough, everything has been moved aside or put away, and they have the dance floor set up perfectly. Water is set out for the both of them, with towels, and they're already dressed for the practice. There's a speaker system set up, so they can dance to the music, as well.
Eichi smiles warmly at Wataru.]
To the audience, it will look as if a hand gracefully dipped into hell and plucked you from it, saving you from the burning coals of the damned.
[His fingers curl tighter around Wataru's hand, a nice squeeze, and he tugs for him to follow inside.]
But we both know the truth is that you're the one who's purified me, Wataru. You're so radiant... It's incredible. I'll let your light inspire me, and shower you in warmth. The promise of a near-kiss has my heart dancing already.
[He dances into the ballroom, still holding Eichi's hand, trailing after him, his hair billowing like there's wind in the hall, like he has more momentum than is natural.]
Oh, but I was in hell, until we found our convenient partnership to be more than just that! Never forget that you did lift me up. [Even if it was Eichi who created the hell in the first place.] How benevolent you'll appear to the masses! And should anyone say I'm simply dragging you down, we'll adjust, and adjust again, until our performance communicates the message we intend!
[Wataru, a brilliant master of the stage, will see to it that the first time is the charm. He's sure of it.
He pulls the door closed behind them, and halts Eichi's progress into the room so he can wrap the slightly thinner teen into his arms.]
Will they ever know the truth? Somehow I hope not. I don't mind being your shadow. Your darkness. We'll both rise as angels when we leave school, and then! Oh! The heights we'll reach!
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[A sigh, and he nuzzles Eichi's nose.]
But maybe this time it won't be so. We may have to weather this and that, but we'll be granted a whole lifetime together.
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[His hands cup Wataru's face, and he kisses him more completely before pulling back, reluctant.]
It's nearly the time I had meant to wake up and return to my room, before the staff drop by. Just like the rest, this parting will be temporary.
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[No, no, he wants more kissing, he wants more affection, he's feeling so starved for it. But he doesn't let it show. He just smiles, nods.]
In a while we'll be roused for breakfast, won't we? And then after that... rehearsal?
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[He stands from the bed, grabbing his pajamas and slipping his arms through the sleeves of his top first. He ducks in as he buttons it, kissing Wataru slowly.]
And after that? [His voice is low and drawn out, and as he pulls back again to grab his pants, he smiles brighter.] I'll arrange a trick to rid you of this room and place you closer to mine. It will be much easier to meet up again, after that.
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I'd like that. I'd like to sleep next to you every night, if it's possible! I've never known happiness like being beside you...
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Pants on now, he squeezes Wataru's hands and forces himself to step back and let his grip slip away completely.]
In a couple short hours, I'll see you again... my beautiful partner. From now on, let's sleep side by side for a majority of the night and then escape before the sun rises. Like two distance stars coming to meet again and again...
[He smiles, and even in the dark it's shining. He waves cutely, reaching behind himself with the other hand to unlock and slip out of the door without ever turning around.]
See you.
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His hands hover in the air a bit, and the ends of his hair seem to droop from where they were sleep-mussed and wild. Eichi's leaving... Eichi...
Eichi's leaving, but with beautiful words, a promise, and all Wataru can do is nod because where Wataru is usually the whirlwind, Eichi is that this morning. He wants to scream at the top of his lungs, yes, yes! But off the blonde goes, and Wataru finally lets his hands dumbly wave back, a goodbye to the nothingness that remains in Eichi's absence.
He feels cold now, incomplete, but they're lovers... Yes, that's what they've become! They've held each other so close he can't bear being apart. Minutes pass, Wataru's violet eyes fixed on the door, then a knock comes. One of the servants to rouse him. He's so glad they don't bother him much, that they don't open the door, because he's still naked, and still staring blankly ahead at the space Eichi occupied until moments ago.]
Yes, good morning~☆! I'll be out shortly!
[Cheerful, but with a feigned touch of sleepiness to make it seem as though he's only just awakened. And then he slides out of bed to dress and make his way to breakfast.]
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It means they'll have a space to themselves, and hopefully the focus on their performance is going to keep their hands off of each other, but he's already thinking about tonight.]
Take your time if you still have anything to finish, Wataru. I'm done, myself, but I won't leave until you're ready.
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Eichi, though! Eichi adores him, and Wataru kicks his feet a bit beneath the table as he's addressed. Reaching for the last strawberry remaining from his French toast, he grins.]
I'm ready now! Our show is mere days away! We can't possibly think of dawdling here, right?
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I want to be perfectly in sync with you, Wataru.
[He stands up from his chair, and the servants move in to begin clearing up immediately. They don't give Wataru the same courtesy of waiting. Eichi doesn't notice or care, since Wataru's said he's done, and waits for him to join him at his side before he walks.]
I've asked not to be interrupted, so we can practice as we see fit. I have some ideas for how we should begin, but I'm curious to hear yours, as well... What do you think? Is there anything we should add, or edit?
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He walks backwards through the hallway on tiptoe, never taking his eyes off Eichi.]
We'll take it easy for the next few days, won't we? Your health has to be perfect! Eichi has to be in tip-top shape, or we won't finish the lengthy set. But I do have one small, small suggestion...
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He's also just amazed that Wataru can navigate like this. As expected of him...]
Oh? I want to hear it, so don't hold it back any longer. What's your suggestion, Wataru?
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It's a risky proposition. Idols shouldn't date, you know. And especially not school-aged idols, who should be focusing on their careers! But, Eichi... what if we kissed?
[He titters a bit, and clasps his hands in front of his chest as he turns a circle while still making forward (backward?) progress.]
A stage kiss, a stage kiss! We can make it look as real as we like, tease the outcome but never show the payoff. We can create something new, something only we can provide.
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[Eichi looks genuinely surprised as they walk, slowing his steps just slightly, but still managing to keep up. The doors to the large ballroom that's been cleared out for their practicing are just ahead, but Eichi's eyes are on Wataru, equal parts concerned and interested.]
That's an extremely bold move. For two who were on opposite sides to not just join a unit completely different in theme, but to share something so intimate on stage at the first performance...? Ah...
It could be just what we need to snap life and energy into the people. However... it's risky. You could end up hated even more than now. [He brings his hand to his chin, humming.] Though, considering what we're doing... it would likely be temporary. Such a bold statement might actually repair things, over time...
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[Like. Also he just wants to kiss Eichi on the lips in rehearsal, sure, but. There's honestly a bigger plan and purpose here, and he's unveiling it layer by layer, letting Eichi catch on to each little thread. It's more fun that way, so he feels like he figured it out himself. Wataru does love those eureka moments from him already.
They haven't been together long, he knows, they've hardly been a unit any longer than they were kidnapping victims, he often feels, but... The distance and time they've crossed, the way they've gone from mortal enemies to lovers! It's a tale worth telling.]
For now, we look dangerous and sensual. We stir up controversy and keep people talking. But later, when the time is right... It's not like I mind being hated! I never really wanted to die, even when things were at their worst. What's a few more cast stones?
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[He says that firmly enough, eyes flicking past Wataru briefly and at the doors to the ballroom, then back. Shamelessly, he just wants to be able to kiss Wataru, too. They could, each time the curtain falls, if it's placed at the end... He likes that.]
But I want to make this work, as well. I believe it's possible. I'm currently at the top of the school. So long as we perform beautifully, it will cause a rush, excitement. Even if the image is of the two of us meeting in this way, it will seem as though you've been purified, if we manage it correctly.
So let's practice well. I believe we've managed to read each other well enough that we can improvise on the first run, don't you think?
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[He smiles, and drops his voice, soft and gentle and loving and unafraid.]
But we'll never die. Ever. I won't allow it. We're eternal, right? Aren't we? We've declared it already, we've put in the very paperwork that makes us such! I won't tempt fate, but I will say that anyone who dares to come for one of us, comes for us both, and they'll learn they're a fool sooner than I'll even admit that I'm one, too!
[Reaching out, he offers a hand to Eichi. They could. They will. Like Romeo and Juliet, night after night, they'll seal their eternal bargain with a kiss, hidden away from the world. They'll live and die by each other's grace.]
You've seen through my thoughts. Where I might drag you down with this, had we any other concept, the duality of our performance gives you the power of light and goodness. Of purity, even! Set me alight! Burn me up until the phoenix rises from the ashes, and we can both stand as tall as you see me. And for the first one, we'll see where things go. I'll end inches from your lips.
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Eichi smiles warmly at Wataru.]
To the audience, it will look as if a hand gracefully dipped into hell and plucked you from it, saving you from the burning coals of the damned.
[His fingers curl tighter around Wataru's hand, a nice squeeze, and he tugs for him to follow inside.]
But we both know the truth is that you're the one who's purified me, Wataru. You're so radiant... It's incredible. I'll let your light inspire me, and shower you in warmth. The promise of a near-kiss has my heart dancing already.
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Oh, but I was in hell, until we found our convenient partnership to be more than just that! Never forget that you did lift me up. [Even if it was Eichi who created the hell in the first place.] How benevolent you'll appear to the masses! And should anyone say I'm simply dragging you down, we'll adjust, and adjust again, until our performance communicates the message we intend!
[Wataru, a brilliant master of the stage, will see to it that the first time is the charm. He's sure of it.
He pulls the door closed behind them, and halts Eichi's progress into the room so he can wrap the slightly thinner teen into his arms.]
Will they ever know the truth? Somehow I hope not. I don't mind being your shadow. Your darkness. We'll both rise as angels when we leave school, and then! Oh! The heights we'll reach!