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Guren Ichinose ([personal profile] swordfucker) wrote in [community profile] teaism2018-05-20 09:06 pm

more hurt/comfort, neverending

[Sometimes, it's just too difficult to sleep. The thoughts, the responsibilities, the nightmares that are likely to show up. Guren is tired of it all, and when staring at his ceiling just won't do the trick, he decides to take a walk.

It wasn't surprising to find himself walking to Bluo. There was no real intention to bother anyone at this hour. The stars were bright against an unnaturally dark sky, even if the water won't properly reflect them when it's this murky in the harbor. It's late, and even as he moves to pass by Dextera's house, look at their tulips, he doesn't expect to see him outside, as well.

He moves up quietly, though he doesn't make any attempt to hide his approaching footsteps. Near the water, looking at the sky, it seems that Dextera wasn't able to fall asleep, either.]


Can't sleep? [So, he speaks up, settling down to sit beside him without asking, and giving him a curious look. Maybe it's something he can help with.]
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[personal profile] passio 2018-06-03 04:18 am (UTC)(link)
[ dextera can’t help it—he doesn’t want to, but he flinches away when guren lashes out at him. he wasn’t hurt, and it’s not even that he’s scared, but his body knows when it’s in danger and tries to react appropriately.

but guren was crying, and even in the dim light of the room, dextera can see that fear, that pain, that anguish taking him over in a way that dextera has no idea how to address. he’s trembling, just a little, his empathy in this moment maybe a bit too strong, and he reaches out with kind, shaking fingers.

he’s fine. it didn’t hurt.

more importantly, even if it had hurt, guren is hurting so much worse, and dextera has never seen him like this. if it’s something he can’t even try to hide— ]


...
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[personal profile] passio 2018-06-03 05:08 am (UTC)(link)
[ it makes sense, even if guren can’t make himself finish the thought. dextera feels strangely guilty, like it’s his fault for dying in guren’s dream, but he can’t let himself think like that. it truly isn’t his fault, this time. he was here, and he can be here still. ]

...

[ dextera squeezes guren’s fingers, scooting himself closer to cover the distance that was put between them, and he lifts their joined hands to his mouth to gently press his lips to guren’s knuckles.

undeniable contact can only help, right? dextera is warm and alive, and the nightmare should be over now. ]
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[personal profile] passio 2018-06-03 06:36 am (UTC)(link)
[ they promise this so often that it should be a given, that they’ll never be apart, that they’ll always find a way back to each other—but the reality is that if dextera ever goes back, he’s going to die. he will die, countless times, and there’s nothing either of them can do to stop that. ]

...

[ but he nods, closing his eyes, leaning close enough to rest their foreheads together as if he can force guren to match his breathing by proximity alone.

calm down, he says without words. for as long as he can help that, he won’t go anywhere. ]
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[personal profile] passio 2018-06-03 06:49 am (UTC)(link)
[ it’s not fair, that guren should ever hurt—that he should have to take solace in someone like dextera, who is the source of so many problems for everyone around him. it’s not that hates himself. it just feels like a fact, something that runs deeper than the way he regards his own presence.

he’s a burden. and yet, guren wants him, is kissing him now, and dextera doesn’t think so lowly of guren that he would take any of this as a desperation for any company. ]


...mm.

[ a soft breath, a softer voice, and he tilts his head forward to return that kiss. he’s not the one who had the nightmare, but he selfishly wants this too. ]
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[personal profile] passio 2018-06-03 10:06 am (UTC)(link)
[ dextera doesn't mind kissing—no, not even that. he likes it, but he's still worried about guren, and guren is so reluctant to ever speak too much about himself. it's not that dextera wants him to relive that nightmare when it could be over and forgotten, but there has to be something more he can do. ]

...OK?

[ the night is so quiet that he can hear his fingers rustling the fabric of guren's clothes as he signs against them. it's a simple question, but he thinks any answer will tell him what he needs to know. ]
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[personal profile] passio 2018-06-03 05:14 pm (UTC)(link)
[ dextera wants to kiss him, even with that silent answer, so he does. guren may not be okay, but they both share this desire—so it’s fine, to kiss guren’s lips softly, breaking that intense heat for a moment.

but he soon shifts, propping himself up so he can kiss guren’s forehead, then his nose, then his mouth again. it’s tender because that’s what dextera wants, and he pulls back so he can brush his fingers against guren’s cheek.

just to look. it’s okay, if he wants to look, isn’t it? ]
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[personal profile] passio 2018-06-03 05:28 pm (UTC)(link)
[ dextera loves guren.

he would do anything to keep guren safe and comfortable and sane, and if kissing is something that helps, he’ll kiss until guren pushes him off. that fond look, knowing he’s done something right, is all he needs. ]


...heh.

[ he was worried, and he still is, so the next place he decides to kiss is guren’s neck—which is pretty saucy, but then he just stays there, which makes it seem a little more affectionate than flirtatious. ]
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[personal profile] passio 2018-06-03 05:49 pm (UTC)(link)
...

[ dextera feels more confident, answering yes to that now. he didn’t lie when he promised to stay alive before, but it was pressured by his own fear, his own anxiety.

now, when he kisses guren’s neck again—and again—as a yes, even he feels like he believes it. he can give guren “alive.”

and if he’s starting to feel frisky from this confidence, it’s best not to comment on it. let him roll with this, pressing his hand against guren’s chest for balance as he kisses harder. ]
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[personal profile] passio 2018-06-03 06:04 pm (UTC)(link)
[ it’s really not because of the nightmare that dextera is feeling particularly saucy, but just because they’re close and cozy, and when emotions run high, it’s easy for things to get translated without thinking too much of it.

it’s not crazy, that he would want to touch guren this much after seeing him so scared. ]


Mm...

[ a response, hummed against guren’s neck, and he tilts his head to kiss guren’s jaw, since he’s a little too shy to do things like bite or suck completely unprompted.

what he can do is smooth his palm across guren’s chest, feeling him.

some might even say groping....... ]
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[personal profile] passio 2018-06-04 03:19 pm (UTC)(link)
[ dextera has a pretty decent butt, actually, but no one ever gets to see it because he's wearing that long coat!! congrats, guren!!

it is subtle, though, the way guren touches him, and dextera only notices because he's so rarely touched there by anyone. he actually does shiver, pulling back from guren's neck to look him in the eye—rather than the embarrassment that might be expected from a moment like this, there's that particularly special wanting look in his eye. asking for more, asking for permission to do more without saying anything.

guren alone gets to see dextera at his most desirous. ]
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[personal profile] passio 2018-06-05 06:38 pm (UTC)(link)
[ dextera gasps, softly, since a squeeze is even more something to be noticed than just a touch. it feels good, if not a little strange, too—but it's encouraging, more than anything, and guren's words help seal the deal that it's okay to just go.

he can do what he wants, and with the promise of a reward, it's altogether irresistible. ]


...

[ what he does first, though, is touch guren's face to guide him in for another kiss. this is how he wants to start his exploration, however deep or shallow this little smooch ends up. ]
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[personal profile] passio 2018-06-06 06:51 am (UTC)(link)
[ just a shirt, but the fabric is so light that he might as well not be wearing anything at all. lucky for guren, at least, that it easily moves out of the way when he pushes at it, and dextera knows what that pushing might mean. so he sits back, divesting himself of his top.

there's a moment, where he gives guren a look that might seem shy—but in this context? it's really more like coy, since he's learned not to be too embarrassed about that scar, about what his body looks like under his clothes. he looks much better than he did, these days, than when he first arrived in this town. there's a flush of life in his cheeks, and he's filled out thanks to everyone fussing over his health.

congrats, round two, on unlocking a dextera that doesn't look like a corpse, guren!! ]